It's Easy If You Try

This week at work has been so hectic since it is the final week before our biggest fundraiser. It's always crazy because everyone is on edge and overworked and the day to day things are still going on, but no one really has time to deal with these sort of things. The problem is, no one will admit that so everyone feels an added sense of pressure. With that said, I am very happy to be home "early" and able to put some thoughts down on "paper".

I've been doing a lot of thinking. Trying to go inside myself to see where I need to go and in what direction my life will lead. I can't say that I know for sure, but what I can say is that this week I learned a very valuable lesson and I would like to share this experience with all of you. I don't want to bore you with too many details but please bear with me as I let you into a little piece of me and not so much the girls.

There are certain things in my life that have "felt right" but nothing so much as meditation. It's crazy to think that the journey that I am on started many years ago when I walked into a very good friends house and just before opening the door he whispered, "Please keep your voices down and walk right into my room because my mom is meditating". I don't know how long I stood there between the front door and the bedroom door, but it felt like hours. I swear I can almost smell what the house smelled like and I just remember staring in awe at this person, so serene, so calm, "meditating". I thought this was the most amazing thing in the world and therein began my journey into myself. Mind you this is years later and I am not much further from where I was almost 12 years ago, but I am okay with it and that's what I'm learning is most important. Love for ME.

It sounds very cliche to say that "All you need is love" but if there is not love, then what is there? Nothing. What's crazy is that although LOVE is so easy, we have made it such a mystery because we listen to our minds and confuse it for our hearts. I am learning to distinguish between heart and mind and it's incredible the innate intuition that has been able to flourish. Basically, this is me saying to the world, I know I am not perfect, but imperfect as I am: I LOVE ME!